Friday, March 30, 2012

The saga continues...

I have hit the six month mark at work and I'm still working.  I'm not sure that I've recovered from the rush around Remembrance Day.  But I'm still here.

I am now a year off of antidepressants.  I don't feel the need.  And I even got through winter!  I still take a lot of iodine.  I tried to cut back but it just didn't feel right.  I have added a wee bit of Erfa Thyroid to my Cytomel.  I also take progesterone cyclically.  I will see the doctor soon to see how my blood work looks.  I am still not feeling great.

Sleep is still a major issue.  Body pain would be the other major issue.  I am pretty sure they're tag-teaming me!  One  definitely affects the other.

Some time back I told a friend that my very short "Bucket List" contains only one item:  a good night's sleep without medication.  I apparently still have a lot of work to do.

So when all is said and done, things are somewhat better.  I am employed.  I will be completely off of the Disability roll in one month.  That is progress.  Outside of work  and my home responsibilities, I don't do much of anything else.

For now, that's plenty.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Where I"m at today

We are just days away from Christmas.  I can't say I'm overwhelmed with Christmas Spirit.

For the first time in years, I am approaching Christmas as an employed person.  Nearly three months ago, I got a job right around the corner from our home at a dry cleaning business.  It is pretty much full time.

What I've learned:  I can work on my feet very nicely as long as I'm moving.  I have really good organization skills but don't always do well with interruption.  I can deal really well with calm people.  I am fast (who knew??).  I can make some pretty silly mistakes when I'm tired.  REALLY silly.

  From the end of October until Remembrance Day (November 11), we were extremely busy.  My boss knew I was getting very tired.  I had to start wearing a wrist brace (and so continue, although the need is not as great now).  I was told things would get very quiet after Remembrance Day.  They haven't.

Now the the Christmas rush should be over, as our military are on their leave, we shall see what the new 'quiet' is.

I am hanging on by my fingernails.  My time off at Christmas will tell me whether I can continue.  A good rest may be all I need.  I hope.  I am making some crazy mistakes, and last week my terrier brain turned into 'pitbull' (a customer referred to me as such.  Lovely) when dealing with a rude customer.  This is not me...

I've managed to pare my thyroid med to 2x/day. I take most of that amount at night right before I go to sleep. My sleep is hit-and-miss.  Some days 1/2 a sleeping tab will do.  Some days even a whole tab doesn't seem to be enough.  Doc has added some progesterone, and I am reacting well to that so far.

I still think my thyroid needs more support, but may have hit a brick wall there.  I see doc on Tuesday.  We'll see how that goes.

I am still taking a lot of iodine.  I've discovered that the days I don't take it, I do not feel well.  Even reducing the amount is not good.  I had increased over 100 mg when the reactor in Japan exploded.  I planned to reduce the amount when I figured I'd reached saturation.  My body seems to request otherwise.  I am thinking of increasing my amount.

Of course now that I'm working I have much less time to figure these things out, so that poses a challenge too.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Part Four

I have finally been officially diagnosed as hypothyroid.  I am quite certain that I've been hypo for many years.

Hypothyroid symptoms can include these:

Breathing difficulties, particularly "air hunger" or the inability to inhale a good breath.
Course skin on the soles of the feet.
Ridged Fingernails
Low body temperature
Stubborn overweight
Low Blood-pressure
Hair loss
Muscle pain
Brain fog
Menstrual irregularities
Dry eyes
Dry skin

and eventually...

heart disease
high cholesterol

I am pretty sure that's not a complete list, but why would you want more?

I had a lot of these symptoms.  After several months on thyroid medication, in my case Cytomel, I still have many of these symptoms.  What I have noticed is that my skin is softer, my hair is thicker (and curlier??), my mood is much, much better.  My energy level is better (but not great, yet) and brain fog is decreased.  My breathing is also easier.

There may be more room to increase the Cytomel.  At some point I will likely be switched (only with MY agreement) to some form of natural thyroid, like Erfa, which does not have to be taken as often and which has a more complete range of the various thyroid chemicals.

I will also ask to be tested for Hashimoto's Thyroiditis.  This is a common cause of hypthyroidism, so the theory goes.  It is an autoimmune condition.  Knowing whether I have this will not change my treatment much, but I will probably look in some different directions, as there seems to be a strong association between Hashimoto's Thryoiditis and gluten intolerance.

Not that I'm thrilled about giving up gluten.  It seems like SO much work.  But if you must, you must.

I have not returned to LDN, as described in my previous post.  Once I started on thyroid meds and my sleep improved, I was not in a hurry to do anything that might interfere with that!  LDN's effect on sleep is usually transitory, but I'm just not that patient right now.  I am learning that LDN can positively affect autoimmune conditions like Hashimoto's Thyroiditis.  That would force the issue, and I would get back to taking LDN.

I am completely off anti-depressants and don't miss them.  I am down to, most nights, half of one sleep prescription.  I would call that a net gain!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Mirages and Illusions

What a month.

I am once again reminded how it is that I seem to live (and not alone!) in a parallel universe of some sort.  I am not a science fiction fan, in any sense, but there are times when The Matrix seems like a serious possibility.

As a Catholic Christian, I am reminded that God is the God of all that is "seen and unseen", or more accurately translated "visible and invisible".  I am SO glad He's in charge.  I have trouble enough with what I can see...nevermind what is visible or worse, INvisible...

Since my son's diagnosis, and beginning to work with that information, my husband has had another heart attack.  He's had at least three, by professional estimates, but this one he noticed, and it has resulted in stent #2 being placed.

So that's good.  He's feeling well.

Me, being me, wants to figure this all out.  A good friend, who is a 'dog person', said I have a terrier brain.  I get an idea, thought, or bit of information and carry it and shake it around until it is all exposed (think of a stuffed animal shaken around until all the stuffing is out!).  Just as I've been investigating to find out what is making me ill, I am now trying to figure out how to help my ill husband...sometimes whether he wants help or not.  But at least with him, we KNOW by symptoms why he's sick.  He's diabetic and has high cholesterol and high blood pressure.

But how to proceed?

I am rapidly finding out that what applies to my situation also applies to his different situation.  Being hypothyroid, I have discovered that many things on which the medical profession depends, such as lab tests, are not necessarily dependable. 

My first clue was what they were feeding my husband while he was in hospital.  His most obvious problem, other than chest pain which came and went, was high blood sugar.  It was high and it was stubborn.  He was to be receiving a 'diabetic diet'.  One morning, his entire breakfast, save a small piece of cheese, consisted of grain products.  Of course, husband's blood sugar did not come down quickly.  One afternoon when I was at the hospital, they brought him in a snack.  A "Rice Krispie" square.

Surely someone knows that a high carbohydrate diet will not help a diabetic to get his blood glucose in order?  If what my husband was being fed was a 'low' carb diet, then I'd hate to see a high one.

I do my research from the internet.  That can certainly be risky, as you can't just assume what you are reading has good information to back it up.  I try to be careful and stick to sites that are well documented.  There are many.

So here are my illusions...the illusion of authority.  We are told that we can rely on doctors for health.  But it doesn't take a long time spent reading to realize that often what we're being told by our doctors is not what many other researchers are finding.  Experts do not always agree with each other.  And what works for one person may not work as well for another anyway.

One need only look at the changes over the years in the Canada Food Guide, to realize the experts don't really know all that much.  They can be as subject to fad as the rest of us.

Then, there's the illusion of accuracy.  "Everyone" knows that a high salt diet will aggravate or even cause high blood pressure, hardening of the arteries and other problems.  But what if what "everyone", including your doctor, knows isn't quite true?  I have been finding out that much of what we know is simply not true.  As far as salt goes, the connection with high BP is not as cut-and-dried as we have been led to believe.  And if we exchange table salt with unrefined sea salt, the connection is further reduced.  Dr. Brownstein has written an entire book called "Salt Your Way to Health".

A similar illusion exists with regards to cholesterol and saturated fats in our diets.

Sometimes I feel like the ground is moving under my feet.  Is what I read real, or some manipulation of truth?  While I am certain our doctors want to do what is best for us, can I be certain they aren't being misled?  Is that health up there?  Or is that a mirage?

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Life goes On

Well, I feel like I've dropped the ball.  But really...not really.

We got word this week, officially, that our son is intellectually disabled.  We've certainly known since before he was two that there were points of concern.  His gross motor skills were delayed as was his speech.  This can happen.  Friends of ours have a son with a similar combination of delays who went on to be very accomplished.

It would seem that will not be the case with our son.  At 7 he is still working at the level of a 4-year-old.

So now my quest for health, which is far from complete, will branch out into a quest to assist our son in becoming everything he can be.

It is interesting how this worked out.  If we'd received this information last year, I would have been unable to process it fully, or at least as quickly.  I would have been less able to do anything about it.  I remember sitting in on our son's IPRC (Identification, Placement and Review Committee) meeting last year, having brought in some help, feeling like I could barely follow what was happening.  I was so foggy.  I am not sure I could actually sign the legal document that is the IPRC report.  So I took it home and reviewed it.

As it is, our son's diagnosis has come at the end of a year of hard work on my part, trying to get my brain functional again.  It also comes at a point where I am rather disenchanted with 'systems'...medical, educational...but mostly medical, because of what I've learned is or isn't happening and how much suffering and loss of productivity is resulting from this.

It would seem that the upcoming year will be another year of hard work and discovery.  We are blessed to have in our circle of friends and family several people with expertise in areas of education and/or working with the disabled.  Alread the ideas and opinions are flowing thick and fast.  This is good.  I know how the 'rabbit trails' can work.  You start with an idea to investigate and as you do, other ideas surface until you forge a path that seems to make sense.

I am not coming to this totally unprepared.  I have been reminded that our son's condition is not an illness in need of a cure.  It is a lifelong conditon that must be worked around, accomodated and lived to the fullest.  Only time will show us just what that will mean for our son.

Already, it has been suggested that we investigate Gardner's work on multiple intelligences.  I believe this is valid.  Our son's testing did not show any particular strengths or weaknesses, but did she test his musicality?  This is one thing in which our son seems very strong.  He also has a 'thing' for colours and identifies them more easily than he identifies common objects, it seems to me. 

I want to check a couple of medical possibilities.  Thyroid, of course.  I am very sensitive to this, having discovered what I have about my own health.  In the process I have also learned just how devastating and mulifaceted in its effects a thyroid malfunction can be.  Two areas strongly affected are speech and intellect.  I also want to try again to get a proper hearing test.  We have tried before, but our son was not cooperative.

So, my little buddy will be training us as advocates.  I've been learning to be an advocate for a while now, for myself.  I guess now it's time to try this for someone else.

For our son, advocacy may be of a particular importance as our son is not a 'behavioural'.  He is a nice kid, reasonably polite with no particular attentions span trouble.  He will be easy to pass over when it comes time to allot classroom assistance.  But he will not learn without that assistance. 

Friday, May 6, 2011

My Story Part Three...

Today's writing comes with a caveat.  I seem to have fallen into a "flare-up".  I woke up this morning with a bit of a backache, and by noon I was in bed.  I rarely go to bed during the day.  Not that I don't want too...but I try not to do anything that will endanger my precious sleep at night.

So today was not a good day.  My mind is not at its best either, but I will try to be coherent!

My friend the former nursing student had been dealing with health issues of her own for pretty much the entire time I'd known her.  By the time I was ready to start seriously figuring out what was wrong with myself, she had her condition under good control.  She had done this pretty much on her own and had a lot of very good information and, dare I say, advice to offer.

We had discussed low-carbohydrate diets at length.  This had done her a world of good.  Although I had never been as strict as she is, I did lose weight while eating low-carb.   So maybe that was something...but then she suggested I look into low-dose naltrexone. 

At its full dosage, naltrexone is a drug used to treat substance addiction.  At lower dosages, usually 4.5 mg taken at night, it causes suppression of endorphins, which are usually produced by the brain in the early hours of the morning.  Because of the suppression, the body reacts by producing more of those precious endorphins, which can result in an increased  sense of well-being, reduction in pain and other good things like regulation of the immune system.  It has also been used by people with MS and cancer with good effect.  For my friend, after the initial settling in period, it improved her sleep.

Naltrexone is a prescription drug, but the low-dose usage is considered "off label" so it can be hard to get a prescription for it.  I went to my doctor's appointment armed with information and a meek attitude.  I saw a brand-new doctor who said she'd look into it.  That was more than I'd hoped.  When she called me back the next day to tell me a prescription was waiting for me, I was ecstatic. 

So, what did I notice?  It did make my sleep a bit more restful.  I did not have to deal with sleep disturbance which is common in the first week of use.  I was still on sleep meds.  If my sleep was disturbed by the ldn (low dose naltrexone) I wouldn't likely have noticed.  I did have some interesting dreams for a couple of days!

My depression lifted a bit, and energy got a little better but over-all I did not notice a great benefit.  But I persisted.

Something else I picked up in the process of reading.  The antidepressant I was on had the side effect of disturbing sleep, and causing dry eyes and mouth.  With doc's permission, I reduced the dosage by half.  My mood did not deteriorate.  My sleep improved a touch more, and my mouth no longer felt like I had cotton in it.

Researching ldn led me down another rabbit trail...iodine.  What really caught my interest here was the connection between iodine and thyroid...and nearly everything else.  I had been using non-iodized salt, and less of that, for a long time.  We don't eat a lot of fish, so being iodine deficient was a good possibility.  And I now had good evidence (namely many iodine eaters!) that iodine was quite safe and very necessary.  So last December, I started taking Lugol's 5% iodine solution as part of a protocol.  I am currently taking about 100mg/day (and yes, that is milligrams) and am happy to be doing so.  I definitely feel better on it than off!

However, iodine had now led me to another rabbit trail...thyroid and adrenals.  Notice how thyroid keeps resurfacing?

Iodine is critical in proper thyroid functioning.  If one's thyroid has not been functioning well, eventually other things suffer.  The body is under stress because thyroid hormone is used by most parts of the body.  Without that hormone, the  body tries to compensate.  This involved the hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis, a complex feedback loop that I picture as being like the body's transmission.  I won't get into the details too much.  There is a common name...Adrenal Fatigue.  Flash back to my not handling stress?  Well now I was getting the picture as to why.

My latest doctor, a first-year resident, was encouraging.  When I first saw him, he asked me to come back to him (as opposed to the other doctors in the clinic) as he wanted to help me "figure this out".  THAT was music to my ears.  My first request from him was a refill on my ldn prescription.  I also asked to get the prescription for the 50mg tablets so I could dissolve them myself to make up the 4.5mg dosage.  I got the prescription.  He also ordered a serum cortisol bloodtest (which I later found was not very accurate, but I sure appreciated the cooperation).  When I asked for a more detailed saliva cortisol test, he said he'd do whatever he could to see that I got it.  Turns out that he couldn''t help. Our medical system doesn't do saliva cortisol testing.  So I ordered it myself.  Also, he didn't blanch when I told him I was taking iodine supplements.

In the process of getting ready to take the cortisol test, I was counselled to stop the anti-depressant, sleeping pill, and ldn, which I did.  To my surprise, my sleep was not as horrendous as I'd expected.  Perhaps it was because I'd also completely stopped the anti-depressant?  Who knows?

My test results showed that I had high cortisol.  This was indicative of early adrenal fatigue.  This was a surprise as I expected I`d have low cortisol.  Perhaps my adrenals were not as `shot` as I`d thought.  Mind you I`d also been taking unrefined sea salt and large amounts of vitamin C daily, as part of the iodine protocol.  Both of these are also known to assist in adrenal health.  It did not take too long for rhodiola, an adaptogen, to make my daily average temperatures stable.  But they were still low.

Eventually I asked for another TSH test, along with Free T3 and Free T4.  The "frees" measure the amount of thyroid hormone available to be used by the thyroid gland, as opposed to the total amount in the body which may be bound and unavailable.

So begins part four...